Baby steps

So, I'm here revisiting this and just had a hearty laugh at those last posts.

I have come to hit a low point in my life, and now it's time to rise up. I fucked up a great oportunity and now, due to pretty much magic, I'm in possesion of a new computer so I can work faster and better.

It is completely unacceptable that there are personal projects stalled from years ago, and it's time to change that. I'll take the next six months working on those and basically acquiring new skills, and creating a new portfolio so I can be very awesome and leave the past behind. It's hard to have debts already, but it's worst to have debts with your past-self which you just can't ditch, and which have some awful interest rates...

It is key to mention that this year I learned about the reason all previous attempts at change have failed, and that's because I (not just I...) was focusing on the wrong aspects of it. Some guy named G. Bateson discovered (or rather proposed?) that there are Six levels of change. Most people only act on the first two, like the fattie with the new year's resolution that fades after two weeks. In order to really change you have to go all the way through to the deep levels and change it all from there.

Anyhoo, to business: There are things that need to be done, and it would probably be wise to keep a log just in case. So that's why I'll try to write here daily.

As of today, the whole place is a mess: I have the boxes lying around from the new computer, papers cluttering desks, and food that waits to be cooked. Also need to transfer some new files from the other computer in order to work well.

So today purposes are:
- Clean this shithole
- Eat and cook
- Transfer the missing files
- EDIT: Oh yes, very important: Don't watch porn!

I'll post tomorrow with more stuff I guess.

Kreutzer Vleudzer Oyster

HEYA

So, it's been a while since I last wrote something here. Apparently, from what I just read about a minute ago, last I posted here was on Oct 2014. Who knows why. Back there I was in the 3D anim career, thinking about VFX and Rigging probably. Cool.

Frankly, I don't think much has changed since. And even since probably some 4 or 5 years ago. I don't know. Some areas have changed, some remain the same. Which ones do matter more?

And now I'm listening to Beethoven's Kreutzer, and frankly I don't know if it is because of the reminisce of many many many fuking many past years gone by. I'm not in english-speaking-mode, by the way, so yeah, just sayin'. Kek.

Fucking Kreutzer, dude. Amazing melodies there. And kewl effects. Kewl. Dude. Coool. That's better.

Meh, so yeah, I guess that's for it about just now. Not sure why I'm posting, but then again I'm not sure about pretty much anything at this point.

(Why yes, Beethoven's music just turned very deep)

But ohhhh my brethren, there's a ray of light! That will turn into the endless angst and its inconsequent agitation!!!!

The power of angst
and the mysery of time!
(But why, was it the
mystery of time?)

On the [long] road to recovery

Hey there,

It's been a while since I last updated. Uh, since last time I did actually hit rock bottom with booze like 3 or 4 weeks ago, and had a mental breakdown, switching from euphoria to complete depression in seconds (back and forth) and hitting my head against anything that would cross my path.

I have been doing excercise again since then. Or rather, since after-that, kek. I felt some improvement today, and I've been through a couple of days without wanking, which seems like a big improvement, and last time I did was not with porn. So yeah, things are looking better modafakaaa!!

I just received a call from my ex-boss. I sabbotaged that job because I'm a fucking douchebag (or rather, I was more of a douchebag a couple of months ago), and I wanted to check the Thesis that being good does forgive mistakes and intentional fuck ups. Apparently it does. There's a freelance work that has come up for next week, so maybe I will get some money so I can pay my debt and stop owing money to the banks.
Fuck. Them.

Uh, I don't know what else to tell ya, I finally pulled my head out of my ass and completed something for the Uni project that was supposed to be done about a month ago too, which is nice. I feel very strange, also with some 'longing' for the past years, but I'll try my best no to fail myself again.

Allright, so I'm going to clean the dishes and make food so I can hit my macros and then probably go to sleep, so this is it for tonight. We'll see how long does the improvement impulse lasts...

See ya!

PS: My internet connection got fixed today too, and the telecommunications company sent two chicks, one was hot! It's good to entertain the sight when that happens.

PS2: I hadn't eaten anything from McDonalds in about two years, so I decided to go today. Deliciously toxic.

Times [do not] change

Well, well, well.

It's been a while since I last posted here, like 4 or more years I think (I didn't even check lel), but I guess it would be nice to me to post something today. So here we go.

Uh, some little-flash-forward thingie to start would be nice, so I did get in a relationship with the girl that was 10 years older than me, but it didn't last long. I finished music school and began another career in digital arts, and I also finished that one (but haven't completed my duties because I'm such an asshole), and am about to finish 3D animation.

Now, as to what I came her to talk, I guess was just to say that I'm pretty much doing the same things I did some years ago. These last days all I've been doing is sleep, drink, smoke weed and play WoW. I found mead IRL! after lots of looking around :P. I'm a bit disappointed, but then again I need to check with other people to see if I got scammed, lel

DING LVL 80 YESSS

So yeah, I don't know, but I haven't done much lately and I feel a bit like crap, a bit like I don't care, and a bit like I should care, but I'm not really doing nothing so far except posting here.

I also have been trying to find some decent Paperblanks non-underlined Midis around, but there are no more where I live, shit sucks, and I don't want to buy Moleskines because the dudes that sell those here are some expensive bastards. I still got a few free pages till I find somewhere to write.

Well, I guess that was pretty much what I wanted to say, see you a future time I guess

EDIT: SO I just checked and apparently last time I posted here was two years ago, and I deleted the post I thought existed here. Interesting. We'll see if this one stands out or gets deleted as well, lel

And one year later...

Here I am, posting again here.

But then again I have no reason to post here, so you could say that I'm just doing this to kill time.

Anyway, to give some meaning to this post, I'll just leave this here:

http://vimeo.com/36466564

New start

Yo.

That's "Me" in spanish, lol!. I'm trying to start this shit again, perhaps so I can do at least something productive while I'm high. Right now on some Corinto, shit is awesome! I went nuts about being a beast a dinasour or something, and then I kept seeing the screen getting bigger as I ran into it like speedy gonzales.

So not much, I'm a young guy trying to be an artist, right now musician and perhaps writer, or something like that. Currently in 5th-6th (fucking shithole where I study xD) semester of music and writing some poetry ocassionally. I'm from South America, ñaaaaa.

Aaand that's it. For today, at least

Oh, yeah, and KINGSTON WALL IS FREAKIN AWESOME, AND SIBELIUS AND HOLST AS WELL