Baby steps

So, I'm here revisiting this and just had a hearty laugh at those last posts.

I have come to hit a low point in my life, and now it's time to rise up. I fucked up a great oportunity and now, due to pretty much magic, I'm in possesion of a new computer so I can work faster and better.

It is completely unacceptable that there are personal projects stalled from years ago, and it's time to change that. I'll take the next six months working on those and basically acquiring new skills, and creating a new portfolio so I can be very awesome and leave the past behind. It's hard to have debts already, but it's worst to have debts with your past-self which you just can't ditch, and which have some awful interest rates...

It is key to mention that this year I learned about the reason all previous attempts at change have failed, and that's because I (not just I...) was focusing on the wrong aspects of it. Some guy named G. Bateson discovered (or rather proposed?) that there are Six levels of change. Most people only act on the first two, like the fattie with the new year's resolution that fades after two weeks. In order to really change you have to go all the way through to the deep levels and change it all from there.

Anyhoo, to business: There are things that need to be done, and it would probably be wise to keep a log just in case. So that's why I'll try to write here daily.

As of today, the whole place is a mess: I have the boxes lying around from the new computer, papers cluttering desks, and food that waits to be cooked. Also need to transfer some new files from the other computer in order to work well.

So today purposes are:
- Clean this shithole
- Eat and cook
- Transfer the missing files
- EDIT: Oh yes, very important: Don't watch porn!

I'll post tomorrow with more stuff I guess.

Kreutzer Vleudzer Oyster

HEYA

So, it's been a while since I last wrote something here. Apparently, from what I just read about a minute ago, last I posted here was on Oct 2014. Who knows why. Back there I was in the 3D anim career, thinking about VFX and Rigging probably. Cool.

Frankly, I don't think much has changed since. And even since probably some 4 or 5 years ago. I don't know. Some areas have changed, some remain the same. Which ones do matter more?

And now I'm listening to Beethoven's Kreutzer, and frankly I don't know if it is because of the reminisce of many many many fuking many past years gone by. I'm not in english-speaking-mode, by the way, so yeah, just sayin'. Kek.

Fucking Kreutzer, dude. Amazing melodies there. And kewl effects. Kewl. Dude. Coool. That's better.

Meh, so yeah, I guess that's for it about just now. Not sure why I'm posting, but then again I'm not sure about pretty much anything at this point.

(Why yes, Beethoven's music just turned very deep)

But ohhhh my brethren, there's a ray of light! That will turn into the endless angst and its inconsequent agitation!!!!

The power of angst
and the mysery of time!
(But why, was it the
mystery of time?)